Actress and fashion icon Heart Evangelista recently shared an emotional vlog on YouTube, where she candidly discussed the inner and emotional challenges she faced following a falling-out with people from her past.
While Heart did not explicitly identify the individuals involved, speculations point to her former glam team members with whom she had a publicized conflict about a year ago.
In the vlog, Heart expressed how these people took away her inner joy and peace, leading her to become less bubbly and more concerned about portraying perfection when interacting with others. She lamented feeling painted as a toxic and bad person by these individuals. Despite the emotional toll, Heart revealed the added stress of having to encounter them in the same working area.
Here are some excerpts from her heartfelt statement:
"Sorry, I'm getting teary-eyed. Whenever I get problems, like personal problems, I couldn't even be in a bad mood because they would make me feel like, yeah, that's the goal. Yeah, that I'm so toxic. And so, nowadays, I try to be happy even if I have my own problems. I try not to be selfish. But sometimes, I'm only human, and I'm really tired. I'm really tired of overthinking. I'm tired of thinking about what other people... I hate it! And at the same time, you feel like you're a bad person and you deserve it. Because you feel like you're problematic, you're toxic to everyone. I'm trying to entertain instead because that's my way of getting over it. I overcompensate because I understand I got my own problems. I was really way more bubbly before because I was fighting my own problems too. I know they're gone. But it's how they paint you, like you're such a bad person. So you get extra, like, you know? It's like you gotta be extra perfect to people around you.
It's so bad, that's why, it seems, even if I, before, of course, I was triggered because they make me think that it's all competition. I would be triggered about that because they would feed that to me. But now that I'm alone, it's really not about other people. It's about like they really destroyed my inner joy, how bubbly I was, how I was so carefree, you know? It's the damage that's still there... I'm still struggling because I wish I wouldn't have to see them. But they're here and they ruined the area where I work. I'll get over it, but you're with them for such a long time. I don't want to be bad; I'm not a bad person... I feel like I'm still stuck in a victim mentality."
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